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I stopped using this journal because I can't update on my phone and I'm super boring. :)
Basically, my life is kind of just me looking forward and not really doing anything in the meantime. What I mean is as of January first, I'll be back on my mom's insurance and I'll be going to have my first physical exam in eight years, plus I'm hoping to be prescribed some anti anxiety meds because right now, going out and talking to unfamiliar people makes me want to curl up in bed and hide. After I get some chemical courage, I need to go find a job because I've been unemployed for two years, since my first breakdown while I was working at Petsmart. Once I get a job I can start buying things for myself again, which will be nice, but mostly I want to start saving money so we can fix this house, sell it and move to the west coast. Plus, I will be able to contribute to our wedding! I can't ask Mike to pay for it all by himself. And when we get married and move to California or Oregon, we can start thinking about kids! Basically my whole future hinges on me getting a job, which makes it that much more terrifying.
ANYWAYS. I'm working hard on making Christmas presents for my loved ones and it SUCKS. It was a lot of fun at first, but after ten projects, I'm losing my enthusiasm and stress is mounting because I haven't really made anything for Mike yet. And I know knitting his scarf will take me a week, at the absolute least.
One reason I hit a road block was because I promised to knit my sister a Gryffindor scarf and myself a Ravenclaw one so we could wear them when we go see Harry Potter together. Knitting takes me forever, plus I have to knit it in a tube shape so it looks good on both sides.
Enough complaining! This is why I don't write.
I'm flying home on the 20th and I'm very excited about this. I'll be staying four weeks, which will be super hard because it will be the longest I've been apart from Mike since we first started living together. But being able to just relax and enjoy myself will be so wonderful. The last two visits home have been very busy and ultimately stressful because I was doing something every single day and I still didn't see all the people I wanted to see. This will also be my first Christmas home in three years. I'm pretty excited!